[ti:I Was Hoping] [ar:Alanis Morissette] [al:] [00:00.00]Alanis Morissette [00:05.53]I Was Hoping [00:09.25]As we were talking outside, [00:11.70]It was cold, [00:13.40]We were shivering, yet warmed by the subject matter. [00:17.81]My wife is in the next room, [00:20.03]We've been having troubles you know, [00:22.58]Please don't tell her or anyone, [00:24.55]But I need to talk to somebody. [00:27.37]You said, 'Wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was [00:31.47]Five minutes before I died? [00:33.54]I'd be filled with such regret [00:35.94]Before I took my last breath.' [00:37.52]And I said, 'You're willing to tell me this now, [00:40.49]and you're not going to die [00:42.73]anytime soon.' [00:44.50]And I said I haven't been eating chicken,or meat,or anything. [00:47.87]And you said yes, [00:48.88]but you've been wearing leather [00:53.65]and laughed and said [00:54.77]We're at the top of the food chain. [00:56.88]And yes you're still a fine woman, [00:59.25]And I cringed. [01:03.75]I was hoping, [01:06.80]I was hoping we could heal each other. [01:12.82]I was hoping, [01:15.90]I was hoping we could be raw together. [01:22.41] [01:24.48] [01:26.09]We left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60's), said [01:29.89]'Good bye, sir. [01:31.12]Thank you for your business sir. [01:32.83]You're successful and established, sir, [01:35.26]and we like the frequency with which you dine here sir. [01:38.63]And your money.' [01:43.73]And when I walked by, they said 'Thank you too dear.' [01:47.34]I was all pigtails and cords. [01:49.98]And there was a day when I would've said something like, [01:52.99]'Hey dude, I could buy and sell this place, so kiss it.' [01:57.71]I too once thought [01:58.98]I was owed something. [02:02.29]I was hoping, [02:05.30]I was hoping we could challenge each other. [02:11.34]I was hoping, [02:14.37]I was hoping we could crack each other up. [02:21.10]I too thought that when proved wrong, I lost somehow. [02:25.81]I too thought life was cruel. [02:30.14]It's a cycle, really. [02:31.43]You think I'm withdrawing and guilt tripping you. [02:34.65]I think you're insensitive and I don't feel heard. [02:36.90]And I said 'Do you believe we are [02:38.57]fundamentally judgmental? [02:42.95]Fundamentally evil?' [02:46.48]And you said Yes. [02:48.55]And I said do you believe in revenge, [02:51.14]in right or wrong, [02:52.82]good or bad? [02:53.34]And you said 'Well, what about the man that [02:54.93]I saw handcuffed in the emergency room, [02:58.02]Bleeding after beating his kid, [02:59.74]and she threw a shoe at his head. [03:02.25]I think what he did was wrong, [03:05.11]and I wouldn't have had a hard time feeling compassion for him.' [03:09.00]I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged. [03:14.94]I was hoping, [03:17.95]I was hoping we could dance together. [03:24.00]I was hoping, [03:27.00]I was hoping we could be creamy together.